I am so very tired. I am starting to get permanent bags under my eyes. I am so very tired. I long to take a nap.
I was going to try to take a nice walk this afternoon (thanks D) but I have Nick sleeping and Jake super fussy since he has decided naps are no longer his thing. Im pretty sure he is getting another molar. Which translates to no naps, terrible eating, and difficult sleeping at night. As if that wasn’t exhausting enough having a 3 wk old in the house.
I had a friend stop by and bring lunch for Jake and me today. It was lovely. I love visiting. I feel, especially now with an infant, so trapped in the house and cut off from my friends. Not that I have too many here. So many have moved away. I have plenty of acquaintances and friends but only one close friend in the area. I would like to make more friends, but it’s so much work. Im a pretty laid back person and I need to have friends that I don’t feel judgement from. Other Mom’s out there can attest there is too much judgement all around. I hate to say I am guilty of it from time to time. Also, after I put all that work in they just leave anyways! Stupid military! Too many friendships have been made to simply have them ripped apart by what the military’s needs are. I still keep in touch with people, but Im not very good at it. There are some people who keep up with lots of their friends from the past, but I can honestly say I only have about three people from college that I keep in touch with on a regular basis and only one friend from before then that I still talk to. Ok, getting a bit too negative here. I have a few amazing friends that I can share anything with and I am glad for that!
Well, my disjointed ranting has gone on long enough, and Jake is requesting “Mom, sit couch” so I can watch dinosaurs with him. Cross your fingers for some sleep!