Yup, I guess that is me now. I’m the “mean lady.” Torturing and tormenting kids. Well, at least that is how I feel.
A few weeks ago the boys and I were at the park. When we arrived there were some older kids playing on the swings. They had thrown the seat over the top of the swings multiple times so the swings were about 4 ft off the ground. Arg! I hate when the older kids do this and then leave it like that for other people to fix.
So, I told them calmly “Make sure you guys put those back before you leave, so the little kids can swing too.” They did, but had some trouble with it. At one point they told me their friends had done it and had left them. I said “that stinks and they should give their friends a hard time next time they see them”. I didn’t help them because 1. I didn’t do it and 2. I had Nick in my homemade Moby wrap and really couldn’t jump up and throw the darn swings back into place.
So a few days later I saw the same kids at the park again. They live in the same neighborhood and I have seen them before at the park. Only this time they had brought their father with them, they usually come alone. At one point I saw them point me out to the dad. I was waiting the whole time for some sort of confrontation, but they left and never said boo to me.
Today, as I was walking back from our garden plot one of the boys and his mom were in their driveway hanging out. I smiled and kept walking past as I saw the kid tell his mom something. I’m sure he was telling her that I was the mean lady. I HATE being the mean lady.
I know I didn’t do anything wrong. I was not mean, or rough in the way I had talked to them. Whenever I think about it I feel bad though, because I am pretty sure I made those kids feel bad. Part of me wants to apologize to them, but I didn’t do anything wrong. They had been the ones who messed up the swings. I don’t see them at the park as often as I used to and I feel guilty about that, because I am afraid I am the cause. I’m the mean lady who drove the kids away and hurt their feelings. I’m the mean lady who told the kids to clean up after themselves. I’m the mean lady who feels guilty every time I think about it.
I’m the mean lady.